thank you waves and mari. i will drop the worry about exercise and try to drop the obsessing about a dog. i read more of rabbi nachman who really tortured himself to get closer to God but who writes so positively towards forgiving ourselves and moving forward.
thanks about the heads up with pasta..it is either whole wheat pasta or dreamlands pasta which is good for diabetes. Last night i decided I will still eat the comfort food but this time cut down the portion. I eat a big bowl full and feel satiated...maybe too full. I am sure i can cut back and not feel deprived. I have to look on the net and see if there is a pasta diet somewhere.
I love you all and i know part of this is a crisis of love....i have to learn to let it flow in rather than block it. It is so hard. It is so also a bipolar deal. ugh
bobby