Thank you so much, I was seriously thinking of deleting this post as I am so horrified that I even posted it. I must sound frightening and crazy. But I have very little support other than my boyfriend, my work and my friends.

I have always hated the sounds cutlery makes, but thats just an odd pet peeve of mine!

I can't take multiple conversations, whistling, talking on the phone (cause I can't "picture" what people are talking about), movement and anything loud.
I will absolutley look into the hormone thing, and I am seeing my therapist soon.

I think that a career in hospitality and non-profit proves that I am not this "angry woman" that I felt today, and I know that I am struggling with the "not being able to work" and accepting that this is how it is for now. I am a person who works many jobs (and loves it), is doing hard core boot camp work outs, trekked Mt Everest Base camp 5 months after coming off of a 5 year morphine prescription (pill pushing dr, and terrible endometriosis).

So I know that I have to accept, and go moment to moment.

I appreciate the support, and I really do love children!