I think I am bouncing back and forth. I think this site has begun to help me come out of denial. I think dalhek is right we need to give ourselves a break. Everyone goes through these stages differently. We just all need to be careful we don't get caught up in the depression stage.
My mom tells me that I do deserve to have a pity party every now and then but she doesn't let me stay there more than one day.
My prayer for all of us is that we get to the acceptance stage.