Dear baseball mama,
I am sorry for you pain and the terribly emotional impact that it causes..the mentally exhausting, and fearful state it causes..
I don't know if this will be helpful to you or not, but when I have the daunting, frightening thought that this can get even worse, and last for the rest of my life, i try to break it down a day at a time..the concept is simple and might sound trite, but I have found it really is so helpful to get in a mindset that is moment by moment..otherwise all of this is overwhelming..
I have found some books and C.D.'s that help with this..I know it seems so insignificant to even think of this while you are in horrendous pain, but it can help..I hope the appointment you have made with the psychologist goes well for you..and that s/he is knowledgable about pain psychology and approaches like Mindfully Based Stress Reduction..(Jon-kabat Zinn)
Sending you hugs,
Hope4thebest