WOW! I am speechless.
I want to welcome you and am SO glad you have found this forum!
You will find WONDERFUL support here!

Frankly, I'm 'dumbstruck' and don't know what to say because i have 'too much' to say!? .....does that make sense?

Please stick around, as there are many forums here that will benefit you greatly.....
Your situation sounds like crisis-mode.....

In the main menu there is a subforum specifically for pain pump discussion.
This is listed under the "Medications" section.....

As far as your pain issue.....there are several places that can address this.
Your pain sounds 'acute', which in my opinion is 'emergency'.....whereas, chronic pain issues can be addressed in many places here at NT.....

Please hang in there!
More will come along who can think more clearly to direct you.....
But to be honest, right now all I can offer is a hug and say
'You are NOT alone!'.......

Truly Caring
Rae