Barbara,
I read your post and of course your poem and was very moved! I thought the poem must have been hard for you to even write! I am going to say I am sorry that your brother reacted the way he did and tell you that you are worth being treated better!

I am glad you are no longer being consumed by this, that was not good! You have some 3-D friends and people you can trust and rely on, make closer bonds with them! Just because you brother is family doesn't mean you or him are going to like each other! I have a brother we are 9 yrs apart in age and we hate each other! Like you I tried to get close to him and every time he would cut my legs right out from under me! I had no choice but to do what you did I let go and moved on with my life! I replaced him with someone who deserved me and you should do the same!

Colleen