Andy - I completely understand and I know it is easy to say "screw it" and then you feel like $@#$ every minute of the day. The learning for me is you gotta be positive and not let it drive you down as it will just get worse and worse. I agree you are in limbo and so am I. Hey - about 9 months ago I couldn't bend down to tee up a golf ball and today I'm golfing. Whoopty doo, but really it is a small win as I couldn't do it a year ago. I still feel like crap, like I do every day. It'll impact me all day but I gotta try to live and take some small successes. I have 4 people depending on me so I have some motivation. Doesn't mean I'm goinng to be normal today, tomorrow or even in a year from now.

I'm just saying you gotta find some small victories. You're going to be in limbo for a while - then again I know of a hockey player (forget the name) - plays for the Manitoba Moose (IHL). Spent 10 months in a dark room, couldn't do anything and one day woke up normal and is playing hockey again.

There's hope. Stay positive and look for some small victories. You learn a lot about yourself and it will build character for later in life. Easy to say but try your best to not let it rule you.