Pam-

I know exactly what you are going through. I had a bad 3 level ACDF (c4/5/6/7) done by a quack. I spent 8 days in the ICU after the surgery trying to survive. My recovery was compounded with the fact that my father was in a nursing home dying from a brain tumor at the same time I was in the hospital. I prayed every night to die.

My prayers are never answered, but I somehow made it out. It took 2 years to recover, but in the mean time, I leaned on my physiatrist, and he immediately got me some antidepressants to help with my mood. Please see one of your doctors to help you here.

I don't have the problem with affording meds thanks to insurance, but I've got a couple of sites that you might want to look into to see if you can get your meds at a reduced cost or possibly free.

http://www.rxassist.org/Default.cfm
www.needymeds.com

Take a look at them, register and see if they might help.

Make sure you get a 3rd, 4th, and 5th Neurosurgeon opinion before you decide to do anything drastic. Make sure you've tried everything before you take that step.

joe