Hi Soccersam. I'm glad you stopped by NeuroTalk. There are a lot of good people in the Survivors of Suicide forum. They are people who have lost ones to suicide and who have tried it themselves and they understand. As our good friend Alffe says, it's good to talk about it and you've made that first step.
Most of us understand depression as well. I've had that all of my life but manage now with meds and lots of love from others.
You'll find a lot of compassion and understanding here. Do please follow Chemar's link and post in the Survivors of Suicide forum.
I hope this finds you well.