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Originally Posted by Soccersam123456789
I've been depressed for two years going on on three it was berriable untill last year year. I tried for the first time to kill myself a couple ways(pretty stupid only). By my post u can tell that I'm still alive. Anyways I get happy then I get so down and I want to end it. I don't becuase edit seems bad as well as any other option. edit. The down side if you don do it right u could be alvive and even worse sitation. Getting to my question, it seems that the one thing keeping me from ending it is how it would affect my family,friends,etc. Anyone who delt with a loss to sucide could do me a favor an write a response. I know it's selfish and help is so close but I feel like payig some one a lot of money is stupid.(my parents money/health insurence) I've talked to shrink before but I never was able to open up to him truely so parents didn't want to pay the money. Then we stopped.
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Hi Soccersam...and welcome to NeuroTalk. I'm glad you decided to share what you're feeling rather than act on those thoughts. Some of us have been talking about suicidal thoughts (our own and people we love, those we've lost to it, and those who crippled themselves with failed attempts) for many years now.
Our only son ended his life with a gun in his mouth 20 years ago last Jan. and it changed our family forever. It took many years to forgive him for that and to get over the anger we felt....to say nothing of the guilt. We will of course never be the same people as before but we have survived it. Please follow Chemars link to the Survivors of Suicide forum.
