I turned 25 on Monday, May 31. On the evening of Tuesday, June 1 I received a call from the emergency room from my best friend's husband. My best friend had attempted to kill herself by over dosing on pills and alcohol, as well as having had cut herself up very badly.

He found her when he came home from work and called 911. She has since been released back into his care. I saw her last at my birthday party on the evening of Sunday, May 30. Currently, I've texted her a supportive note and she has responded that she just needs some time alone for right now, which I have respected and let her know when she's ready to see me I'll be ready to be there. I've also been keeping in contact with her husband to know how things are going.

I went to my first psychiatric appointment last night, in hopes of getting advice on how to handle our friendship through her hopeful recovery. I have another appointment next week, and am lucky in that I seem to have chemistry with the therapist I'm seeing.

I've joined this forum for personal support, so I can be strong enough to support her through this. We didn't see it coming (do we ever?), as she's always dealt with depression and has ups and downs.. and she has been acting like she was on an up. Normally, she talks about things that have been overwhelming her instead of turning self-destructive, and this time she didn't.

I am very, very thankful that she's alive and with us still to cherish. I fear for the impact this is going to have on her marriage, her future plans, her self-image, and the people around her.

Any kind words would be appreciated, any advice would be too. I feel for the people who have lost friends and family to this.. I don't know what I would have done if the call I had gotten had been him telling me he had found her to late..

I will be lurking around the Survivors of Suicide and the Depression forums.