I have been taking herbal route in terms of medication. I know that the dangers of prescription drugs outweighs the benefits in the long run. I usually take ginko, b6,b12,fish oil, and a coffee to boost my day.

I used to drink and have no problem socializing with my peers. However, after the incident I find myself in a lost of words. This problem worsens at a crowded party. This is why I have decided to cut down drinking substantially. My inability to identify social cues is a really big problem for me. Girls would pass on hints towards me and I would just respond rudely... I never had problems with girls ever... in my life. There would be times where a girl would tell me that she is attracted to me and I would not know what to say back. (this happened too many times to count i might add...) and it frustrates the hell out of me.

I really just want to live a normal life really. I just feel so incomplete. My personality is gone... I have no real hobbies because I can't seem to hold any term of commitment for ANYTHING. I feel if this problem continues on... I will find myself single for the rest of my life as I find it really hard to form long term memories.

I find a routine is very helpful and relieves a lot of stress as I do not have to stress about anything "different" being introduced into my schedule that might freak me out. But then... those type of events are what makes life fun and memorable... wouldn't you think?

My goal now is just to graduate and make my parents happy as I have stressed them enough. I had so much potential... But this injury greatly hinders my ability to achieve my goals. I had goals of becoming a professional.. architect...engineer... etc. It was all possible too. Before the first event I felt life was too easy. I felt that I was too smart for school. Now I sit hear reminiscing my childhood and wished I was "smart" enough not to involve myself with a neighborhood gang.

I still challenge myself everyday but I find myself extremely forgetful. Will this ever improve if I keep my mind busy? Though social skills are important, I my value my ability to learn more.

Sorry for the rant. I found it really depressing when I told brother my situation. I have always looked up to him... the guy graduated from Berkeley. He seemed really stressed from the news. My parents noticed that I have changed and started stressing too. Therefore, I would rather learn to understand myself with the help of this board since only you guys are the only one who would truly understand the hardship of this tragedy. It really broke my heart when I learned that symptoms are likely to be permanent after a year. But I will pray, have faith, and be as optimistic as possible living the new me. If you guys can, would you guys be able to answer the questions scattered throughout the post... thanks!