I got really upset when i read you were hating yourself.....i know it is hard in those moments but you have to start doing some mantra that you love yourself. it was probably an allergic reaction....how can you learn to be kind to yourself? i am afraid first your mother now your resume are really stressing you out.....it is hard to be mentally ill when you don't have a thought disorder but rather a mood disorder with lousy defenses to protect yourself with. everything gets so magnified both physical and mental
i am glad you went out though and haven't become like me the past years
love
bobby