Hi Lonely 1, Just 1 minute at a time, 1 breath at a time,1 prayer at a time, and pretty soon time will have passed and this sad time with it. Be sure that there is a plan that is special for you, it just has not been made plain to you at this time. Sometimes when i am at my lowest, I just talk to God, he understands, always listens and always is my friend, even when I feel so very alone. My prayer for you tonight will be that the minutes pass quickly, and you will feel the love and caring from your friends here, the ones that understand and get you. Peace to you, my friend, Lisa