Oh Grom,
I am so sorry to hear this. You certainly do not need bad baggage, but to lose a marriage is tough.
Especially with a house, moving when it sells, Do you have children near by? Siblings?

I am sending my hugs to you, Go a head and have 20 minute cry on my cyber shoulder and then, wipe the tears, know you are loved here, and my prayers are with you, Don't hide your head in the sand, keep it up as high as TOS lets you.
With all the health issues going on, maybe it is just a time out and better days coming.
Hugs,
Di