Hi! Depression is a highly treatable condition. Ask and insist on help from your doctor. The time is now for you. Doctors can only treat what they know about and as patients it is our job to give them the information that they need to help us. I have RSD and depression, and how you are living your life right now sounds like all the classic symptoms of depression. When you combine that with living everyday in unrelenting pain, both physical and emotional, it can get beyond the point where you can handle it on your own. There is no shame in asking for help, so be strong and do what you need to do so you can have a better life. You deserve it!! You have earned it!! When you learn to love you and accept you, then you can fix other problems. My prayers are with you, you have touched my heart. Lisa