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Originally Posted by kicker
said to DH, why should I feel cruddy everyday on off chance it MIGHT help me? Now that I'm in a chair 24/7 (could not be stopped) I kick myself for wasting time when I could still walk around by taking drugs that made me feel yucky and wasted time. Honestly, they impeded me more than the chair. Drugs are great for some, not for me.
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I think this comes close to what I am trying to say. I think I would rather be IN a chair or dragging a leg, or really have it apparent that I have MS, and still have all my facilites about me. Sure 90% of the time, you can look at me and never guess I have something wrong, but ...at what price?
Its a horrible thing to say, but I believe that I would rather be chair/scooter bound and still have my ability to think, my energy, my personality, my sense of self, vs being able bodied and dead in the head.
Thanks for all the support!
yes, Barb and I were dx about the same time, and I remember the issues she had. horrible! I will end up with about 3 months of Copaxone in the fridge. I wonder where it will end up? I am blessed in that my insurance covers all but $6 per month for me. I would hate to throw it away. I wish I could gift it to someone here who pays an arm and a leg for it.
I will continue to struggle till Friday when is MY deadline to make a choice. I am just so tired.
