I have to admit, that before I found out that there was a reason for
all the falling, dizziness and some of the other symtoms I had that lead
me to look into this doctor when I saw his ad. I felt like a complete
failure.

Its part of the reason I still have a very low self esteem in many times
and ways. I still let many people run over me. Its a lot of the reason
I let my husband be the way he is with me. I've come a long way with
him, but I really don't want to divorce him. Or not be married, with
is all that is left, I still love him and if he could get over the fact that
he is so depressed and not happy too at times he would be less stressed
and could enjoy life more.

Anyway, When I first started I couldn't do the things that they tried.
But I wouldn't stop trying, even though they took my blood pressure,
checked my finger for a pulse, and my heart beat a lot. I really wanted
to get better. So they just did the routine that we needed to do at
a slower speed. I got to were I could do it faster with less problems.

I then asked if we could start also working on walking outside too. See
I couldn't walk outside without falling every few minutes some days.
And they had already told me that we could learn some ways to figure
out how to now textures and hopefully find holes you couldn't see.

That is the one amazing thing they did. I usually found every hole in
the ground. And then the ground found me. Now I usually catch my
balance and the ground doesn't see me. I just figured that out the
other day. It was a amazing moment for me.

I still a couple of years ago fell in my house. I don't honestly think I wont again. But I've noticed lately I've been catching myself. Which is one of
the reason's I noticed the dizziness was back.
Before I'd have been on the ground or thrown myself hard into a chair.

Its such a improvement. Its a change in my life, some wont think so but
I am not the klutz I was. So I have lost that name, and I have lost the
name of groundkeeper, when you were always on it you kind of owned it.
And I still am scared of stairs, But I don't want to zinks myself so I'm going
to print the sentences with out one word.


I DO NOT _______ ________ stairs any more.

Opps its two words. Now to explain, I used to do this at least 3 times a week. As both a child, teen, and adult.

It was so bad, that when my now husband and a friend of his the night
they meet me teasingly (And I knew they were teasing)
Said, we are going to throw you down these stairs. I went hysterical
on them. They had no clue why. My husband has never teased
me about stairs again.

Donna