Hi Eri,
Eventhough I've only been on this forum for a little less than a year, I feel like I really got to know you. In the beginning I was so confused and every time I read one of your caring and informative posts, I felt my journey was shared by others.
You've dealt with so much and you deserve a break (not literally LOL) -- and NOW.
I hope things take a turn for the better and you get some relief from the pain. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Kathy