Barbo, of course it helps that people here care about me, it's the only thing that gets me by sometimes.

Jaded I wish I could see that about myself too, and no I'm not seeing any professionals; I can't afford it anyway. Plus I'm bad at talking to people, that's why I come here, where I don't actually have to talk, and it's all anonymous. Besides, like I said, I think I've given up; I have no desire to try anymore.

Thanks for the words and the thoughts though...