Thank you DMACK for the wonderful poem.

The sad thing is, I really was trying this time. I was trying to be different, to change, to think differently... but it never mattered, I'm still someone who is tolerated out of politeness and pity. Once they stop feeling guilty, they stop tolerating me.

And I just can't try anymore; it takes so much time and effort and energy and money,then in the end all I get is dissapointment and rejection. It's not worth it. I've been trying for so long, and things are only getting worse.

I hope that BMW is right and something finds me