I'm trying to decide what the deal is with this implant. Its driving me bonkers! I've lost about 8 lbs in the last month and I swear it feels like my implant is moving. No doubt I had a big chunk of fat holding that sucker in place and now its "flapping in the skin" so to speak. I can feel all of the lumps and bumps of my implant (I couldn't do that before) most likely because my surgical swelling is finally gone and because I've lost weight. I can feel my leads, both externally and internally. I have this constant ache that runs from the insertion point of the leads over to the implant and the area around the implant hurts like mad. I'm thinking the pain around the implant is due to loss of the "fatty" cushion that was there and its pushing against my muscle when I'm sitting. I shutter to think what it will feel like by the time I lose 20 lbs.

I finally decided to attempt to work again. I was hired as a youth counselor in a foster care facility. I love the job..but I am in desperate pain by the time I get home and the following day I can hardly move. Considering the fact that I only work 4-5 hours at a time and not every day, I'm thinking THIS SUCKS. My lymphedema leg was so darn swollen yesterday that I basically hung out in my recliner all day.

Partial light at the end of the tunnel though is that I'm going in on the 14th for my RFAs (obturator nerve and lateral femoral cutaneous nerve). That should hopefully take care of some of the leg pain ( although I wish they could just block my entire left leg and who gives a poo if it would screw with my ability to walk). My SCS is hit or miss on the leg pain. Some days it helps a little but most days it doesn't even touch it.

On a positive note, the scs is (for the most part) covering the sacro-illiac pain but the implant pain almost nullifies that because I'm back to popping pain pills to cover that pain (oh joy, I have to take the norco because my dilaudid interacts with the phentermine that I'm taking. I say oh joy because the norco makes me hyper! I was so wired 2 weeks ago that I was up for 37 hours straight!!). I'm going to ask if I can stick a Lidoderm patch over my implant to help control that pain. No clue if it would do anything to the implant, I can't imagine that it would however, better safe than sorry, I'm going to check first!

On a happier note, my ponies are doing well and are happy to be out 24/7 again. My ducklings are 7 weeks old now and getting to be so big! They almost have their adult feathers in. Their father, however, is so not a happy camper! He and my other male cannot stand the ducklings!! It looks like I'll have to find new homes for DoodleBug and Dorothy (the ducklings). Their mother, bless her heart, is brooding again! She made a nest the day after I took the babies from her and if the eggs are going to hatch, it should be any day now! All of my other critters (dogs, parakeets, and fish) are doing quite well. I don't know how I'd survive if I didn't have my animals in my life, they keep me sane and keep me trucking when what I'd really like to do some days is just give up and stay in bed.

Hopefully I'll post a happier note after my RFAs