Hello!

It's amazing how many similarities there seems to be with everyone in this forum, and amazing how well I can relate to some parts of your life. The energy-stealing depression, the wonderings of fairness and equality, and ESPECIALLY the friend problems. (except I never had that many to lose )

But a few things are different between us. For one, when someone hurts me they are likely to know it almost instantly. Incidently, this drives them away just as well as your methods; most people just don't care that they've hurt me. For two, I've had a fairly easy life compared to lots of people. I was always well provided for and loved as a child, and nearly perfect health my whole life. Yet I've ended up just as depressed and lonely as people much worse off then me. Maybe I'm just weaker then they are, or maybe this is one occation where the world finds some measure of equality and fairness.

Anyway, it's good to meet you! If you want to share any more musings, there will be plenty of people here ready to listen and offer love, support, and understanding.