I am so sorry with all you have faced and continue to. I wish I had the words to comfort you but you are in my thoughts and I do hope things look up. I can understand living in the unknown and up in the air is very hard. I hope you can put plans in some way to get more settled soon. I know it is not going to take away everything you are dealing with but the extra support of a therapist may benefit you. I know when one experiences such tramatic things having support and someone to feel safe talking to can help.I also know they have support groups for pet loss. I encouraged my mom to go but she did not but just another thought As for your pain for me night time is very hard as well. I know it is hard to know what helps the pain and what hurts sometimes. I hope things get better soon.