dejibo,

You seem to be in some crisis mode a lot due in part to your family.

Make a list on paper of what your stresses are and then make a concerted effort to eliminate as many as possible. If you need to escape your family to get relief, I would not recommend that you give them any reason for avoiding contact as their retorts will only upset you more.

At one point I believe you wrote that your mother is dead. When you refer to your "mother" are you talking about a step mom or am I not remembering right about your mother being deceased.

If your problems are with a step mother, then she should be fairly easy to stay away from.

Clear your head and good luck with the new, calmer dejibo.

gmi