Welcome to NT
You're going to love the people here. We do care about you.
Sorry you're having to figure these things out so young.
You seem to be very strong-minded, perhaps from your experiences.
Those are tough lessons on life. Lessons to learn from and do the best you can with your life, the life ahead of you.
Adulthood is challenging; so is being a teenager. It's about mastering some life skills that enable us to make the right decisions every time, which is hard to do, for all of us.
What you do today will be your past tomorrow.
Let's try not to waste our time on things we have no control over. Find some peace in the day. Be true to yourself and you will be okay.