ok. so after those hungry days when we thought someone had spiked my benzo with Zyprexa, i was totally afraid of the scale. the hunger did peter out, then i had stomach problems (probably NSAID-related) then i quit the benzo and my appetite took a dive (interestingggg, eh?) for a couple days. so today it though ok, now that i have a faint hope of regaining control here let me check the "damage" and got on the scales.... surprise surprise!!!

i LOST another kilo (2.2 lbs!) could be water weight from not being hungry the past few days, but i have actually been drinking lots more water than usual so i kinda don't think so. i know it isn't much - but i expected to have GAINED back something or at best stayed the same!

i have been wanting to run again but concerned about my feet (previous sesamoid injury with multiple relapses).

thing is, we think my sudden weight gain (1.5 times my original weight in a few months!) contributed to the original injury, even if it was precipitated by trauma.

so now i'm hoping maybe by fall when it will be cooler and better for starting up outdoor exercise, i might have lost another few pounds and it will be even less risky to my feet to try for a little jogging. we'll see.

~ waves ~