Suz , You are by know means alone on this trip . I went from being a 39 yr old Firefighter in tip top shape - ran 3-5 miles every other day , lifted weights , all the macho firefighter stuff lol , before I was injured . And now I am getting ready to hit half a hundred and hope the wind isn't blowing to bad when I go outside , how crazy is this stuff ??? One of the things I enjoy most of this board is the ability to vent when you are having a rough time . But keep in mind a better day is out there , maybe not tomorrow or the next day but it is out there ! Take care !