it seems like post traumatic stress to me too...paxil is supposedly good for it..it does take a very long time...after my explosion I was such a wreck and was in limbo...the whole thing was surreal....can you write a story about your accident...and go back to it...you had faith and faith was the only way I managed to dig myself out years later. It was a feeling faith....not an intellectual faith...sort of like Kierkegaard's divine leap..
I am holding hands with you now
Bobby