I skipped my doctor's appointment yesterday..i was feeling sick and it was way too cold...I probably missed one or two other appointments in the past five and half years. I have to wait until a week from Friday. The rage flared up again last night but quickly dampened when I explained a situation to a dear friend and she thought I was wrong in my reaction...I called back my friend and rectified the situation and he said no big deal.
I just want to stay in the apartment and not deal with the outside world.
My close friend called from Israel and I didn't feel like talking....she is so understanding....An acquaintance told me to watch myself with my friends.
For instance, another friend invites me out to lunch sometimes on the weekend and often I say no. The acquaintance said watch out or she will stop asking. I said that won't happen. Most of my friends are decades old friendship and even if they don't understand me they know about my moods and how they don't reflect on my feelings towards them. I guess I am also taking them off the hook lol when I am in one of my moods.
Bobby
the imperfect perfectionist