Waves,

I am sorry I didn't mean to make it sound like you all aren't enough to persuade me. I have a tough time doing things without the simple yes from family....have had that for a long time. Like I need their permission to do anything it seems. I don't know why that is, but I have a hard time making decisions maybe because am afraid i will dissapoint them even more than already have.

I do have a doc. appointment this afternoon. My primary doc. is out for the week, so I am seeing another doc. who has been very nice to me in the past and is one of the docs that put me in the hospital for the first dehydration.

waves i do wish you were here, i need a friend like you all here...so supportive. It's nice to hear your kind words.

Thanks for everything
hugs,
jen