Thanks Mari
I didn't sleep much last night. I listened a lot to Josh Groban. I played him a lot when Luc was here.I also was petting Yuki and Abby so much during the night. It was as if they were taking turns. That was very comforting. I was severely depressed before I got Luc and that was one of the major reasons I got Luc. I love schnauzers. Luc really is a special schnauzer. He used to kiss me so much right from the start and that made me feel so good. I thought he would be able to drag me out of my apartment and face the world. He wasn't able to. Instead he was a little miracle. You should have seen him tear around the apartment with a stuffed toy in his mouth! funny and joyous. He was too much pressure. the kitty cats aren't.
Hopefully I saw a few activities outside that might drag me out of the apartment and hopefully help me meet new people besides interesting me.
A couple are religious learning and a couple are fitness. two conflict with each other and my scheduled therapy appt but maybe i can change the therapy appt. if I wind up liking either activity.
I also just got on the scale again and I lost 17 pounds. I am trying to stick to the Ornish diet even though i occasionally break it with chop suey. If I can keep on losing weight, that should make me feel better.
I was severely depressed before Luc entered my life and I thought he would help me break out of it.
right now I see only one more major source of sorrow on the horizon. i don't know if it will happen or not. time will tell. it concerns another friend. I think he is beginning to realize how troubled I am and it might just not be worth it to him. If that is the case, I can't blame him. Life is hard enough
bobby hating bipolar
ps i called about the lease and got an apologetic reply after first being told it had been sent out and was told it will be sent out today-hooray