Thanks so much for all the support and yes this is a different hosp., I would not let my dogs go to the other one! When I was suffering it was because I was alone there (I told my dh who is terminal with heart disease to stay home since I just knew the nurses would take care of me...bad mistake) and as I was told I had to lie flat and be still for 5 days my mouth quickly was glued shut by ack of water and they brought me 3 trays of reg food a day and left it out of my reach and when poor dh finally got enough water in me so I could talk he was livid and made sure he was there at every meal....never have I saw such lazy nurses...plus I got 2 baths in 9 days and one was from my CNA sis! The NS was out of town therefore could not use the locaL hosp.....but it was the worst exerience of my life and when I was able to talk I raised holy hell with them and when they tried to withold my pain meds i simply showed them my cell phone and let them know my docs number was in it! I guess it just did something to me and now I am somewhat paranoid and my back hurts worse then ever since the fusuion and I am still on heavy meds but no Xanax! I called the doc today and explained I am going through way too much right now and asked for test to be post poned...they agreed. Just after my last post I was having lunch with my 18 y/o ds and suddenly began to choke and I panicked and was waving my arms wildly, and for a minute he just looked confused and then shoved a bottle of water at me....and I knew I was going to die since he never had CPR and the craziest things went through my mind when he had this look that he finally understood I was in real trouble and just as I was blacking out he got behind me and place his arms around my ribcage and began to squeeze upward, each time ( maybe 5 or 6) a bit harder when the food came out...and it was deeply lodged in my wind pipe. I then asked him if he took CPR in high school and he said know so I guess he picked it up in movies???? I am so proud of him..he actually saved my life as I was helpless and once he knew..he did it perfect. I was so shook up that I cried all afternoon and then slept until 9pm.
Anyway, sorry for the book. Thanks again for all the help!