Hi Reyn

We've missed you here. You've been asked about a few times, Addy specifically asked for you after she was gone for a couple months. And there's a member from the old forum who wondered if you had come to the new NT forum, I don't know what her name was then but here it's "wishnomore." (There's been a lot more since you've been gone that's just the two most recent that I remember )

You did NOT fail anyone here, sometimes you need to go away in order to clear your thoughts and gain some perspective, and remember what David's signature says: "take care of YOU." If you needed to be away then nobody has blamed you, although we're all happy to see that you're back. And I've been thinking of you even though I hadn't heard from you.

I think the best way for you to get off the pain meds would be to find a rehabilitation clinic somewhere near you, they may even be able to help you with the suicidal thoughts, and even planning for the future/working through your other problems. (The clinic where my mom went provided help like that)

I'll give you a call sometime this week okay?
I've been praying for you. (and I don't plan on stopping)