Hello Reyn !!!

I dont think you will remember me, but who cares ?

Im so sorry you are feeling "a mess" right now So sorry to read your trouble...
Hum, I can tell you that everything in this life gets better with time, EVERYTHING, trust me So, step by step you will start to feel better...

About quitting the pain meds, I agree you should ask for pro help... they have the right strategies for you to stop and forget about those meds without feeling bad... Is like when people quit drinking... and I know a couple

I will keep you in my prayers... Everybody here have been thinking and caring about you, so, that might help you when you feel suicidal ??

Come talk to us eveytime needed

Hugs,
Majo.