I had my alarm set so I could go to my aquasize at the Y. It went off and since I still felt exhausted and my legs hurt I stayed in bed. I'm missing the Y tomorrow since the grand kids are coming in. So we were at the grocery store, I couldn't make any decisions about what to buy. We went to the self check out and I couldn't get it to work and then we went out in the exhausting heat. Since my DH retired we mainly drive his car and now I don't drive my van which has my remote start. So when I got out in the car I just lost it. I don't think I have ever verbalized to my DH how I sometimes feel. I hate it that I no longer have total control over my body. Some days it's not even 50%. I am only 60 years old and planned on working until 65 as an RN making a difference in peoples lives, teaching patients, families, students and fellow RNs. I don't know how this weekend will go with my oldest grand daughters b'day party. I want my life back, I want me back.