i am sorry you feel so bad. i know the feeling of wanting to get a handle on things and going downhill and not knowing how to stop. i wish i knew of a formula to fix that. i could use it myself.

if you are not up to posting, it is ok. don't feel you have to. but you mustn't worry about being a negative "influence" here. these forums are for support. if people didn't feel bad they wouldn't even be here!

so please keep posting whenever you feel up to it.

we can't change your situation and we may not always have advice, but we can listen and keep you company.

~ waves ~