Dear Peppermint; sorry you had such a rough morning and yes you will find that this illness will take you as low as you can go on a continual basis. I hit rock bottom a few times a week, but...as they say, when you are on the bottom there is only one place to go and that is up. I think that is part of the torture of dealing with this illness is the crashing scale is so frequent and its highs can be high and its lows are low. But as time goes on, you learn techniques to somewhat keep a balance to where your highs are not so high and your lows are not so low. I have learned meditation, exercise, positive affirmations, God, prayer, laughter, living in the moment, listening and respecting your body, and I stopped fighting the inevitable. That does not mean I concede to the illness, I am just not going to use my energy trying to fight the messages that my body is giving me. Energy is everything, I just keep reinforcing myself that this will pass and sometimes I just laugh my way out of it. It is a ridiculous illness to manage, so I will put my energy into positive things and use other techniques to bring me out of the negative. Your ok, your fears are real feelings, just try to find a way to cope through the negative, don't deny yourself or your feelings or pain just find a positive way to manage it and in time and perseverance you will gain some balance and control. God Bless, and be good to yourself, don't beat yourself up over something you can't change, just change what you can.

Jeanie