Thankyou for your nice welcome :-)

.... "flashes" .... flashbacks? ....

Yes... I feel fear when it happens

....Psychotherapist .... nurses are?

Yes but that confuses me when they dont talk about that as such they
wont stop going on about an active healthy life but again dont talk about that much... all I can make out is comments from them like yes good or no weird... and this long list of mistakes of all the should nots of how to go about doing things.... and I dont feel very well listening to the bits about their own mistakes or miseries about their family.... that confuses me.. I dont get it at all why people are the way they are if they are too different from me and cant see it my way at all.. I cant cope when they think Im a liar so it makes me ill when they call me names like mug or skinny or such... Im not enjoying it quite as much as my nurse claims she enjoys my nice company when I dont feel that way either... anyways sorry to complain thats all I do is moan about things not being right for me and constantly having a go at myself for weaknesses and failures and when I wasnt mentally myself anymore what it was that changed me.. Thanks for reading.. :-)

JJ & GG