I honestly didnt know this whole memory thing was in correlation with my rsd!!

this thread may have honestly just saved my life!!!!

i can't remember anything for the life of me. Nothing. And its frustrating and often times verrrry embarrasing. When i was younger (elementary/middle school) i had a mind like a steel trap. I never studied for anything because if the teacher mentioned it in notes i would just be able to remember it and could easily recall it on a test. Not so much anymore. I cant remember what the teacher says long enough to write it down in my notebook, let alone what she said two weeks ago!

i also cant do math worth a darn. I used to be pretty good, i got all As in my math classes til the second semester of my sophmore year. Funnily enough, i didnt develop RSD till the second semester of my sophmore year. Crazy, eh?
I wish i would have known about this being RSD related earlier because i ALWAYS got yelled at by my last math teacher because i honestly couldnt remember what he just talked about. He would show me a problem and i couldnt for the life of me tell him how he did it. Even if he had explained it less than a minute ago. I felt soooooo stupid. I can never remember anything anymore and it drives me crazy. Thankfully i passed the class (with a C-...) and now im done with math until college. yay!

I lose chunks of my day too. I cant remember what i did saturday night. At all. I dont know if i went out, i dont know if i stayed in, i dont know where i was. Thats very scary.

I find it kinda humorous though, because me being in High school, i know my fair share of partiers. They'll come to school Monday morning and ill hear the typical "Did i see you this weekend, i was soooooo trashed i cant remember where i was or who i was with!!!" And i laugh to myself because i have to say those same things, except i didnt have a drop of alcohol hahahah! I dont need to drink, i have rsd!

i stutter a lot now too. my friend (with benefits i guess...) is always teasing because of it. And the fact that i cant ever remeber what we were just talking about. If there is any sort of pause in the conversation i cant recall what we were talking about. And finding the right words... oh wow. This is how i explained a toothbrush to someone yesterday.
"its one of those things, you know, with the spikes, for your mouth, in the morning, with the spikes"
i generally just get blank stares and a few "do you do a lot of pot?"

i honestly thought i was the only person in the world with those problems
im kinda happier now!!!

anna