Please don't give up. We know what you are going through and how painful this is. I have considered giving up myself. I'm just beginning this journey myself and it is very difficult. I'm just a little older than you but I cannot imagine going through the rest of my life like this. There are things to help and lots of supportive people to help. There's a lot of options available and its a matter of finding the right one that works for you. Also, try looking into some natural things like massage, accupuncture, and taking certain vitamins. And definantely keep in touch with other people that have this as well because they are the only ones that really know what you are going through and they are so helpful!