Ever since I started taking Lamictal I been uninterested in school and work. I seriously hate working for other people. And I am in bed a lot all i do is sleep

The reason I got prescribed reperdil is because I do have obsessive thinking and mild paranoia and I am angry a lot over many things of past and present. I do not trust the people of the hospital because they kept me there for 4 hours and made me lock up my purse, shoes, and they made me wear those socks and made me stay in the same room with people who were suffering and were sort of out of control so they were kept there for over night observation.

I got sick in the month of June. I had head aches that hurt 24/7 and a stiff neck for a month and my throat was hurting really bad and my ears hurt. I had to get checked for meningitis. Good news was I did not have it. Bad news was we did not know what I was going through.
So I had an appointment to be seen like a follow up to see if I got better. A few days before the appointment I accidently od on lamictal. I took 200mg instead of 100mg.
What happen was I took the meds around morning time but I usually take it at night. So I took one in the morning and one at night by mistake. I had the biggest panic attack that lasted for many painful hours and I could not sleep all night long because I kept having crazy 3 second dreams that would wake me up every few seconds. I kept getting thirsty and I wanted to throw up and I was so weak. I never felt this bad ever. I did not realize I had overdose until like hours later. Then I took a cab to the hospital. And just because I od by accident they assumed I was suicidal. If I was suicidal I would of taken the entire bottle genius!

But of course I am not like that. I like being alive
So then when I went to get my throat checked they asked me a bunch of times about the overdose and I told them it was an accident. They were like ok how much did you take and all that jazz. I told them but then I asked them, how come you are asking me? LOOK AT THE CHART YOU WERE GIVEN! EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW IS RIGHT THERE! Morons.

Well anyways they ask me why I did it and I told them it was an accident and that I forgot I took it earlier that day. So then they said how is your meds doing now? Are you doing ok? I told them well I am depressed and i suffer from mild paranoia and I get extremely angry over many things.
So this nurse takes me to the Mental health ER. She said I can talk to someone there and get some help right away instead of having to wait for an opening of an appointment months later. She also said that it would be a quick in and out since I had no severe problems. I WAS THERE FOR 4 HOURS. With other people. The security guards ask me why I was here since I was not insane to them. And I told them that a nurse said i would be in and out real quick. Just to get a pdoc. And he was like ok I will let them know. I was there for a long time.

This one man that came in with no shirt on stole me cranberry juice. He took it and poured it all over his head and wore the empty container like a hat.
Then he wanted to play catch with the empty juice container so I participated.

So yeah after talking to the pdoc there I decided that the woman was labeling me and seriously does not understand me and I need to see a real pdoc with a GOOD REPUTATION.

The woman called my mom up and my husband and all this stuff. My mom freaked out and almost bought a plane ticket. I told them not to do it but Noooooo They insisted. I told them thanks a lot my mom freaked and thinks I am on suicide watch because you fail to mention that I was only there to just get a pdoc so I do not have to wait in line. They asked her all these questions with out even telling her what was going on.

So yeah I tore up the prescription she gave me she thinks I'm a wack job.
I am not saying that resperdal is a bad medicine. I have not tried it so how do I know. I know it works well for other people. I just do not trust the lady who prescribed the medicine to me. I think she is just a bad person who should not work for the medical field. If I were to see a real pdoc that I can trust on my own, and if she/he happens to prescribe me resperdal, I then will be willing to try it that way. But until I find a real pdoc I refuse to try anything new.


And that was the month of June
EXCELLENT!

I had a progressive day today at least. I did a lot of homework today!