maybe indirectly it will.

the depression is worse than i thought. it is the subtle kind and i think it crept up on me and because i did't exactly feel great before... and my situation isn't great, i underestimated it.

before, i had other problems with getting around but i also had a great deal of anxiety. the physical problem is resolved, and in general so is the anxiety. i still become anxious with job-hunting but only to what seems a normal degree.

soooo.... if the Zoloft makes a significant improvement in the degree of depression, it could help me to help myself out of my situation.

for now, much as i hate to say it i am out of the running. whatever fumes i was running on for the last run of interviews are gone. if something had come through, it might have had a bootstrap effect on me from the outside. but my inside bootstraps ain't happening. i feel like there is a weight on my chest most of the time. not an anxious pressure/pain thing. its more, like ... crap, i have to bother to breathe. in, out. there, another one.

~ waves ~