Dear Blue,

thanks. maybe the Zoloft will help. but it will take time to find out.

i do sleep.

i do not get sun. it has been sunny but i do not like going out.

lately i prefer rain anyway - rain is mood-congruent weather right now. sun makes me feel guilty for not being happy. rain is like the sky crying so i do not have to.

i am eating whatever i feel like eating. i don't eat much junk food or sugary stuff. but i am not trying to constrain myself in any way. i am allowed to eat whatever i feel like and equally allowed not to eat anything i can't be bothered to deal with.

Dear Bizi

thank you for the hugs.

~ waves ~