Hi, it has been almost 5 months since my accident. I thought I was doing so much better (partly because I SO want to be!) and have been pushing to get back to my normal life.

I even fooled myself that I was finally ok other than the whiplash symptoms I still have (and some learning challenges).

Tues I go to a new cervical/craniosacral chiropractor and get more massage therapy done too.

Well, I think starting about a week ago, I went out to a group Fri nite talk on hoof care (hoping to refresh my memory). When I came home, I noticed my tinnitis was worse than normal.

..Sun we went to dinner at a CT Casino and I noticed that night the tinnitis was worse and probably has been at that sustained "worse" level now every day.

This week, my head has had pains exactly where the impact took place (pains I didn't experience even after the accident, but they may be because it just felt numb at that time).

Is it possible that as the nerves/neurons heal, I am actually feeling the actual pain now after all this time?

After not sleeping well last night, I am finding it hard to get my thoughts out and text a friend/client...I may have come across as agitated and confusing too.

I'm embarassed by the interaction and eventually told them my head was not feeling well and they may be thinking I am making excuses for my behavior since I haven't talked about my head in a while to them.

I am worried about the possibility of slight disinhibition or poor choice/decision making and how that may affect my work in the long run.

Does anyone else experience that kind of thing? (disinhibition/poor choice making?)

I had to do my normal evening chores really slow and concentrated again. It freaked me out and I cried over the lonliness and lack of compassion and understanding from anyone at this point.

Not to mention that I have no guidance if this is normal or not. My thoughts always go toward me making more out of this than is real, but then I can't "snap out of it" either.

I hope this makes sense, because I'm having trouble expressing myself today. Things just feel defeating and hopeless today.

Am I experiencing a relapse of some sort? Sorry for all the "I's" it is necessary for me to keep it as simple as I can make it.

Should I call my regular Dr or finally go and see a neuropsychologist for further testing? This is so hard to figure out by one's self!

Any support or any response at all would greatly appreciated!! Thanks for reading...