you are so right. I usually don't think that way at all. I don't know about you but I am also so self critical? Are you? I think I got it from my parents and have really incorporated it big time. That means I am never good enough. Also in examining the choices I have made in my life, I have made some pretty bad ones because of my being bipolar. I have never taken the easy path.Have you? I wonder if we like the adrenaline of that challenges provide.
I think when you are in your teens, twenties and early thirties one can handle them, but as one gets older, they become more and more pressure and less and less "fun"....maybe i don't know what i am talking about
Love
bobby