Thank you, for making me smile. You have described things exactly as they are. I also liked hearing about you. I probably shouldn't have brought my friend up, but right now he seems to have the most influence on me. It's not always good but it's more than anyone else has done. I don't know where he thinks he is coming from, but it's not supportive. When it comes to dealing with pain a person needs to be surrounded by the right people, and I don't have much choice face-to-face or online. I know that the best thing would probably be to distance myself from him, until I am -hopefully- well enough to act more like he wants me to. I just get really lonely