thanks Mari & Bobby

yes i was amazed at sleeping in the night. i have a chat appointment tonight so i may not get to sleep very early...erhhmmm...

i am noticing more energy. i noticed this before - other than those days when i was not breathing right - i was pretty sapped then. but i had been noticing it before then... and am again now. it is not excessive energy by any means. it is activation but well within the range of a healthy and sane. instead of the deadbeat i always am.

and i seem to be naturally jovial, etc. talking to me, you wouldn't think i'm depressed. if i take a "slice" of my behavior i go, geez, you're not depressed! what are you doing on Zoloft...

but i actually know. i mean, the joking stuff is... shallow? i don't know how to explain. i seem to have this... existential depression... i tried playing/singing today, and i had to stop. i felt dead inside. i feel that way a lot. and that is one of the reasons i decided to start the Zoloft.

~ waves ~