i am feeling keyed up.

not in a good way either - it's close to an anxious feeling. somewhere between tense and jumpy.

also my head has started in again sucking in tunes and playing them over and over again, and i am having the inclination to tap/drum them with my fingers/hands/feet. it will be the same tune for 1-2 days then i will manage to get rid of it only by virtue of being replaced with something else. the latest is Kashmir by Led Zeppelin (a song i *love* and i hope this doesn't upset my appreciation of it ) it's most annoying when trying to sleep because obviously it's counter productive. but it doesn't happen just then. it is controllable, not unconscious, but it is unpleasant.

this was already going on before this morning's dose.

i hope this will subside. if it doesn't i will take some benzo. if i get too uncomfortable i might just take the odd dose to get me over the humps. maybe it would be better to do that than continue to feel uncomfortable. i don't know. my instinct says it's better to see allow my body/brain to adjust first.

~ waves ~