Dearest Mari,
Things lately have been absolutely wretched. I wake up every morning with the thought in my head that if I just end it today, then tomorrow won't even happen so I'll have no chance to be unhappy. Nothing makes me smile anymore, I just want to be able to go to school and enjoy life like everyone else I see is, but for some reason regardless of what happens I always end up feeling like thiings would be better/easier if I just didn't exist. Everyone aroundme is giving me that 'aww you have so much to live for' stuff and it all sounds so fake and it makes everything worse. is it so much to just want to genuinely smile for once? :'(